I had a tiny pity party over the weekend. After learning of some family plans back east of which I wasn't included, I felt left out, unconsidered, an outsider in my own family. I talked myself down off the lofty story I'd created around it. Because isn't that what we do when we're hurting, create stories. My narrative was about me being so far away and they're so disconnected and the shoulds and the could-haves, etc., etc. I needed to get my facts and my mind straight, so I went and sat on my favorite hill.
Hiking up to the hill, looking out over the expanse of beautiful land before me, I grounded. After a busy week, I was able to get back into 'the flow'. I found my crown connection, my grounding connection, my center, my homebase and allowed all the emotions which swirled throughout the meaningless story to simply fade. My mind became clear and my heart opened to the abundance that was presently before me.
Getting into the studio Sunday morning, I pulled the Outsider card out of my tarot deck. Of course! When we play an 'Outsider', we immediately create a sense of separation to everything around us. The story of not belonging, a struggle to survive. Because when we feel we don't belong it triggers a primal fear of survival. The wisdom is that because we inhabit this planet, we do belong. We belong to something much greater.
"The only way to be connected with existence is to go inwards, because there at the center you are still connected. You have been disconnected physically from your mother. That disconnection was absolutely necessary to make you an individual in your own right. But you are not disconnected from the universe. Your connection with the universe is of consciousness. You cannot see it, so you have to go deep down with great awareness, watchfulness, witnessing, and you will find the connection."
As I continued seeing clients yesterday, I noticed a hint of separation within each of the stories. This wisdom is for all of us who are feeling a sense of separation. Separation, or feeling like an 'Outsider' removes you from your own sense of wholeness. It's a story, and perhaps this feeling is even an invitation for you to get quiet, connect to your center and return to your internal homebase. It's at this place where we find our unity consciousness fueling only love, compassion and a peaceful mind.